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Jan. 1st, 2007

Love

Caitlin

Caitlin is a girl who will likely never truely relize how i feel for her. Maybe with us togeth this yearll be better for both of us?

Happy New Year everyone...

Nov. 26th, 2006

Lonelyness

Accident

I got in to an accident yesterday... likely totaled another car... Josh and Will were both there... near Ashford... Fuck me... go figure... got a $124 ticket... :(

Figures, ever notice im a fuckup? now everything will reset itself again... itll be a long time before i have a car again... this WILL jack up my rates :(... wont be able to afford it...

such a fuckup...

Nov. 4th, 2006

Lonelyness

PSY Test Results... You all should take it... apparently im VERY messed up

Problem is, its mostly right...

http://www.personal.psu.edu/faculty/j/5/j5j/IPIP/ipipneo120.htm

My ResultsCollapse )

Oct. 22nd, 2006

Lonelyness

LONELY

Im lonely enough to spend 3hrs on Quizzes... i need a girl :'(

Your Linguistic Profile:
45% General American English
40% Yankee
10% Dixie
0% Midwestern
0% Upper Midwestern

Your Aura is Blue

Spiritual and calm, you tend to live a quiet but enriching life.
You are very giving of yourself. And it's hard for you to let go of relationships.

The purpose of your life: showing love to other people

Famous blues include: Angelina Jolie, the Dali Lama, Oprah

Careers for you to try: Psychic, Peace Corps Volunteer, Counselor

You Are 56% Cynical

Yes, you are cynical, but more than anything, you're a realist.
You see what's screwed up in the world, but you also take time to remember what's right.

Your Personality Cluster is Introverted Intuition

You are:

Multilayered and complex
Inspired and driven to achieve your goals
A visionary with a complete life plan
Intuitive enough to understand difficult problems, ideas, and people

Your Inner European is Italian!

Passionate and colorful.
You show the world what culture really is.



You Are 40% Control Freak



You have achieved the perfect balance of control and letting go.

You tend to roll with whatever life brings, but you never get complacent.


Your Driving Is is: 34% Male, 66% Female

According to studies, you generally drive like a typical female.
You are a careful, skilled driver. And you are patient in sticky driving situations.
You may get aggressive from time to time, but normally you're a cool, collected driver.

Your Luck Quotient: 26%

You have a low luck quotient.
You've had a few lucky experiences, but overall, you feel like a pretty unlucky person.
Good luck can come your way, but you have to be more trusting in the world.
Have some new experiences. Meet some new people. You never know where luck can be lurking!

Your Blogging Type is Unique and Avant Garde

You're a bit ... unusual. And so is your blog.
You're impulsive, and you'll often post the first thing that pops in your head.
Completely uncensored, you blog tends to shock... even though that's not your intent.
You tend to change your blog often, experimenting with new designs and content.

You Are Very Honest

You tell it like it is, no matter what.
Even if the truth hurts, you'll dish it out.
And while some may get hurt by your honesty...
At least everyone knows where you stand!

You Should Be A Taurus

What's good about you: you're stable, responsible, and loyal to those around you

What's bad about you: you're stubborn and overly cautious - change is not easy

In love: it's easy to melt your heart with traditional romantic gestures

In friendship, you're: loyal - you'll do almost anything for a friend

Your ideal job: chef, jewelry designer, or actor

Your sense of fashion: sleek, designer, and very expensive

You like to pig out on: steak and cheesecake

Your Social Anxiety Level: 80%

You have high social anxiety.
You have a pretty serious social phobia, and it effects your life more than you may realize.
It's possible that you've made yourself comfortable by avoiding situations you dread.
But don't be fooled - you still probably need professional help.

You Have a Melancholic Temperament

Introspective and reflective, you think about everything and anything.
You are a soft-hearted daydreamer. You long for your ideal life.
You love silence and solitude. Everyday life is usually too chaotic for you.

Given enough time alone, it's easy for you to find inner peace.
You tend to be spiritual, having found your own meaning of life.
Wise and patient, you can help people through difficult times.

At your worst, you brood and sulk. Your negative thoughts can trap you.
You are reserved and withdrawn. This makes it hard to connect to others.
You tend to over think small things, making decisions difficult.

You Are 40% Boyish and 60% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

Your Geek Profile:

Fashion Geekiness: Highest
Music Geekiness: Highest
Gamer Geekiness: High
Geekiness in Love: High
General Geekiness: High
Internet Geekiness: High
Academic Geekiness: Moderate
Movie Geekiness: Low
SciFi Geekiness: Low

You Are 0% Redneck

I'll slap you so hard, your clothes will be outta style.
You ain't no redneck - you're all Yankee!

Your Power Color Is Lime Green

At Your Highest:

You are adventurous, witty, and a visionary.

At Your Lowest:

You feel misunderstood, like you don't fit in.

In Love:

You have a tough exterior, but can be very dedicated.

How You're Attractive:

Your self-awareness and confidence lights up a room.

Your Eternal Question:

"What else do I need in my life?"

You Are Green Tea Pocky

Your attitude: natural and zen
Peaceful yet full of life. Deep and thoughtful.
You're halfway to tantric bliss!

You Are a Boston Terrier Puppy

Aggressive, wild, and rambunctious.
Deep down, you're just a cuddle monster.

Your New Year's Resolutions

1) Get a pet octopus

2) Eat less lard

3) Travel to Switzerland

4) Study human sexuality

5) Get in shape with belly dancing

Your Political Profile:
Overall: 20% Conservative, 80% Liberal
Social Issues: 0% Conservative, 100% Liberal
Personal Responsibility: 25% Conservative, 75% Liberal
Fiscal Issues: 0% Conservative, 100% Liberal
Ethics: 25% Conservative, 75% Liberal
Defense and Crime: 50% Conservative, 50% Liberal

You Are 60% Indie

You're pretty indie, but you don't make a fuss letting everyone know.
You just do what you like. You enjoy many types of things - from trendy to bizarre.

You Are An ISTJ

The Duty Fulfiller

You are responsible, reliable, and hardworking - you get the job done.
You prefer productive hobbies, like woodworking or knittings.
Quiet and serious, you are well prepared for whatever life hands you.
Conservative and down-to-earth, you hardly ever do anything crazy.

You would make a great business executive, accountant, or lawyer.

Your Career Personality: Brainy, Logical, and Efficient

Your Ideal Careers:

Archeologist
Astronomer
Book editor
Business manager
Civil engineer
Designer
Economist
Inventor
Judge
Scientist



Your Love Element Is Metal



In love, you inspire and respect your partner.

For you, love is all about fusing together for one incredible life experience.



You attract others with wit and a bit of flash.

Your flirting style is defined by making others want and value you.



Greatness and optimism are the cornerstones of your love life.

You may let go too easily, but you never get weighed down by your past.



You connect best with: Earth



Avoid: Fire



You and another Metal element: will control and smother each other


You Are 36% Obsessive

You tend to have a few obsessive thoughts, but you generally have them under control.
Sometimes your worries keep you up at night, though they usually don't interfere with your life.

Your Hair Should Be Purple

Intense, thoughtful, and unconventional.
You're always philosophizing and inspiring others with your insights.

Your Dosha is Kapha

Calm and grounded, you are not prone to mood swings or anger.
However, once you do get angry, it takes a lot to cool you down.
You tend to think a little slower than most people, but your logic is astounding.
Overall, you very loyal and trustworthy. You're not scared of being who you really are.

With friends: You enjoy their company, but often listen more than talk

In love: You crave connection and affection. It's hard for you to be single.

To achieve more balance: Exercise vigorously (especially in the sun) and let go of attachments.

You Are 84% Pure

You're so innocent, it's almost like you're not human.
Taking this test is probably the naughtiest thing you've done in a while!

Never Date a Gemini

Uncommitted, unfocused, and more selfish than they let on - a gemini is a full time project you don't want to take on.
You may be attracted to a Gemini's wit and energy, but you'll be exhausted after an hour!

Instead try dating: Taurus, Cancer, Scorpio, or Capricorn



Your Seduction Style: The Dandy



You're a non-traditionalist, not limited by gender roles or expectations.

Your sexuality is more fluid than that - and you defy labels or categories.

It's hard to pin you down, and that's what's fascinating about you.

You have the psychology of both a male and a female, and you can relate to anyone.


You Are 41% American

America: You don't love it or want to leave it.
But you wouldn't mind giving it an extreme make over.
On the 4th of July, you'll fly a freak flag instead...
And give Uncle Sam a sucker punch!

Your Pride Quotient: 28%

You're a little prideful, but nothing out of the norm.
Like everyone, you enjoy attention. But you're also good at sharing the spotlight!

Your Brain is 47% Female, 53% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female
You are both sensitive and savvy
Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed
But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

You Are Emerald Green

Deep and mysterious, it often seems like no one truly gets you.
Inside, you are very emotional and moody - though you don't let it show.
People usually have a strong reaction to you... profound love or deep hate.
But you can even get those who hate you to come around. There's something naturally harmonious about you.

Your Ideal Relationship is Serious Dating

You're not ready to go walking down the aisle.
But you may be ready in a couple of years.
You prefer to date one on one, with a commitment.
And while chemistry is important, so is compatibility.

You're 55% Irish

You're very Irish, and most likely from Ireland.
(And if you're not, you should be!)

You Are a Banana Coconut Frappuccino

A cheeky monkey with exotic tastes, you get pretty playful when you're hopped up on coffee.

You Are An Apple Tree

You are quiet and shy at times, but you have lots of charm and appeal.
You are quite attractive: your pleasant attitude, flirtatious smile, and adventurous spirit draw people in.
Sensitive and loyal in love, you want to love and be loved.
You are a faithful and tender partner - who is generous in sharing your many talents.
You love children, and you need an affectionate partner.

People Envy Your Compassion

You have a kind heart and an unusual empathy for all living creatures. You tend to absorb others' happiness and pain.
People envy your compassion, and more importantly, the connections it helps you build. And compassionate as you are, you feel for them.

You Are 50% Addicted to Love

Might as well face it, you're addicted to love.
You've been a fool for love many times - but are you the wiser for it?
Your needs should come first, both in and out of relationships.
Because you're the only one who can look out for yourself!

You Have Your Sarcastic Moments

While you're not sarcastic at all times, you definitely have a cynical edge.
In your opinion, not all people are annoying. Some are dead!
And although you do have your genuine moments, you can't help getting your zingers in.
Some people might be a little hurt by your sarcasm, but it's more likely they think you're hilarious.

You Are Boston

Both modern and old school, you never forget your roots.
Well educated and a little snobby, you demand the best.
And quite frankly, you think you are the best.

Famous people from the Boston area: Conan O'Brien, Ben Affleck, New Kids on the Block

Your Depression Level: 96%

You seem to be severely depressed.
You should seek immediate attention from your physician.
Depression can be cured - you just need to take the first step.

Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner.
Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare.
You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie.
Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you.
For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

Your Dating Purity Score: 77%

You are an under-experienced dater.
This doesn't mean you're unexperienced - far from it.
It just means that there's a lot of romance left to discover!

You Are 14% Evil

You are good. So good, that you make evil people squirm.
Just remember, you may need to turn to the dark side to get what you want!

Your Life Path Number is 5

Your purpose in life is to life freely and collect experiences.

You love life - new adventures, new people, new ideas.
You are very curious, and you crave novelty in all forms.
You tend to make friends easily, and you enjoy the company of all types of people.

In love, you are fun and even a bit intoxicating. But you won't stick around for long.

You are impulsive and spontaneous - which sometimes leads you to do things you regret.
Sometimes you can be overindulgent with food, sex, or drugs.
You have many talents, so many that you are often scattered and unfocused.

Your Inner Blood Type is Type A

You seem cool and collected, though a bit shy.
You are highly driven and a perfectionist, but that's a side you keep to yourself.
Creative and artistic, you are a very unique person who doesn't quite fit in.
People accept you more than you realize, seeing you as trustworthy and loyal.

You are most compatible with: A and AB

Famous Type A's: Britney Spears and Hilter

Oct. 19th, 2006

Lonelyness

i give up...

Idk anymore... Im lost on everything... seems like anyone i want to notice me just doesn't get it at all... either im bad at getting attention or no body cares... Doesn't matter... Not in REAL life anyway... i mean the world doesn't end cause someone is alone for ever.. or depressed or anything...

i give up...


Bend me shape me misdirect me
It's all the same to me
Look at all this useless talk
Look at all this useless talk
Look at all this useless talk upon the cross!

You look at me but you don't see
Understand I'm a sinner
Don't corner me
Don't lecture me
Raise your hands you're a sinner

is this everything you wanted, find another dream
You never hear a word I say
You never hear a word I say
You never hear a word I say
So pray!

You look at me but you don't see
Understand I'm a sinner
Don't corner me
Don't lecture me
Raise your hands you're a sinner

I'm a sinner
Look at all these people in front of me
Look at all these people in front of me
Look at all these people in front of me
Look at all these people in front of me,now!

You look at me but you don't see
Understand I'm a sinner
Don't corner me
Don't lecture me
Raise your hands you're a sinner

I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
Oh God, it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head

cause im looking at you through the glass
Dont no how much time has past
O God it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever
feels like home sitting all alone inside your head

How do you feel? That is the question
But I forget, you don't expect an easy answer
When something like a soul becomes
Initialized and folded up like paper dolls and little notes
You can't expect a bit of hope
So while you're outside looking in
Describing what you see
Remember what you're staring at is me

Cause I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
All I know is that it feels like forever
No one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head

How much is real? So much to question
An epidemic of the mannequins
Contaminating everything
When thought came from the heart
It never did right from the start
Just listen to the noises
(No more sad voices)
Before you tell yourself it's just a different scene
Remember it's just different from what you've seen

Im looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
And all I know is that it feels like forever
No one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head

Cause I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
All I know is that it feels like forever
No one ever tells you that forever
feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head

And it's the stars, the stars
That shine for you
And it's the stars, the stars
That lie to you, yeah

And it's the stars, the stars
That shine for you
And it's the stars, the stars
That lie to you, yeah

I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
Oh God it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head

Cause I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
All I know is that it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever
feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head

And it's the stars, the stars
That shine for you, yeah
And it's the stars, the stars
That lie to you, yeah

And it's the stars, the stars
That shine for you, yeah
And it's the stars, the stars
That lie to you, yeah

Oh, we're the stars
Oh, we're the stars that lie

Oct. 16th, 2006

Lonelyness

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I need love, and yet EVERYONE seems to be avoiding me...

Oct. 6th, 2006

Lonelyness

:'(

I need a girl... whats so hard about loving me?

I dont even have anyone who id consider "prospects"... i suck :'(

Hope you all sleep well... im Sick for the first time in 8 yrs...

Oct. 1st, 2006

Lonelyness

:'(

i just want someone to love... someone who would be willing to come home to some romantic scene made by me... so far... theres no one like that... and its all i want...

LOVE

Sep. 23rd, 2006

Lonelyness

(no subject)

3 days a go would have been 2yrs...
not sure i want to continue counting years anymore...
Lonelyness

Transition

Green green grass and a rubber Russian bimbo
No one’s got a name or a brain for the scarecrow
How can he believe what he sees on the TV
Nothing but extreme over-executed fantasy

Happy dancing feet down the street from the corner
Some may say he’s silly some may say that he’s a loner
How can you explain he’s got a name nobody knows it
Did anybody ever stop and offer him a Prozac

Prozac, Prozac, Pro-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oo-zac

Green green grass and a rubber Russian bimbo
No one’s got a name or a brain for the scarecrow
How can he believe what he sees on the TV
Nothing but extreme over-executed fantasy

Happy dancing feet down the street from the corner
Some may say he’s silly some may say that he’s a loner
How can you explain he’s got a name nobody knows it
Did anybody ever stop and offer him a Prozac

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